So yeah, that happened this week. Still processing.
The thing is, I am absolutely not freaked out about getting older. Normally I don’t even keep track of how old I am, and anyways I’m looking forward to my thirties and seeing my family grow up. I am a little freaked out about how old I actually am. I feel like just yesterday I turned twenty-three.
I don’t feel thirty. Not even close. Adult-hood has completely taken me by surprise. Like, I know I have two kids and I own a house and I have a real adult job, but I still don’t feel like I have my stuff together. I just feel like I’m making everything up as I go. Maybe that’s normal for thirty-year-olds, but it just seems like they all have everything figured out.
The other moms at my church look so much more grown up, to me. They wear jewelry, and fix their hair, and have nice, well-cut dresses. I just figured out that if I wear a cardigan with my t-shirts I look less like a high schooler. I’m still regularly told I look “so young”, even that I look 18. Is it because I have baby face, or because my chic-est outfit involves wearing my TOMS without the Pokemon socks?
I still call my parents about literally everything. My car broke! Do I have to get a new one, or is it worth getting it fixed? Aren’t thirty-year-olds supposed to be more independent?
Financially I’m a hot mess. Other families on my street are all buying their kids iPhones and motorized toy cars, and we’re just over here like, “Hey kid, I bought you a $3 house key from Home Depot, have fun!” Also, I’m not saving for retirement yet because I can’t afford it, so THAT’S scary. Aren’t you supposed to have your finances more together by your thirties?
So, yeah, mostly I’m freaking out because I still feel as clueless as the day I graduated from college. Scratch that, I was much more confident the day I graduated college, because life hadn’t happened yet. lol
Sooooooooo, any real grown-up life tips would be super appreciated, and I’ll try to stop bombarding you all with adulting woes now. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!